Am I slightly depressed?
I’ve been prescribed anti-depressants before, but I managed to get out of the situation that was causing my depression before I needed to fill the script. It doesn’t seem as clear cut this time.
I have a couple of reasons why I suspect mild depression. First off, my total lack of motivation to do anything whatsoever…unless there is little or no effort involved, that is. I can lay reading in bed for hours, as long as Hubby goes to fetch my book from wherever it is, as I’m too lazy to get up and fetch it myself.
It’s my birthday tomorrow and I’m not excited in the least. It seems like too much effort to try and organise anything. I’m usually a complete party animal who can’t wait to spend the whole weekend celebrating. Now I couldn’t care less.
I’m busy planning my baby shower but, in truth, I wish I could just ask everyone to post whatever gifts they want to send. Social gatherings seem to scare me off at the moment. (sorry ladies, that and my birthday are the reasons why I won’t be at Bloggirls this month) I’m an extreme extrovert who loves being around people. This is very weird for me.
The most tell tale sign though is that it feels like I haven’t laughed in ages. So much so, that when I do laugh I sound strange to myself, like my laugh has changed and has become very strained.
I hope this is just a temporary side effect of my pregnancy and that it doesn’t last too much longer. I kinda miss being a happy person….